unfortunate event

exactly five weeks ago, i lost something precious to me

something that we hv been waiting for to make our life become more content

on 10th june, after coming back from jimba2 with anne, k chik, fatin n sha-sha, i found this

alhamdulillah, segala puji bagi Allah yang memberi rahmat. no other words can describe my feeling

things went quite well after that. i hv been following a few of new moms blogs, learn a few things here and there. excited? totally! scared? a lil bit. i went to 3 different clinics, priv8 and govt just to make sure that everything ok with me and the one that i carried

first image of my feutes. 7 weeks. 

end of july, when i'm about 11 weeks, i had some bleeding. no, the doctors called it spotting coz it was only a few spots of blood.

i went to a priv8 clinic and a govt hosp just to make sure it's true. becoz i dont want to believe that it's true. but yes, it is true. i lost the baby. the one that i carried in my womb for nearly 3 months. they called it missed miscarriage.

it took weeks for me to recover. physically i'm ok. emotionally? only Allah knows. i still cry when i'm alone and thinking about the baby that so nearly mine but just not destiny to be mine, yet

i'm praying to Allah, to grant me great health, happy and prosperous life, successful career and many many many little ones someday, insyaAllah, AMEN